||[Jun. 15th, 2003|11:27 am]
|||||Cursed cars shooting by on the street.||]|
I'm bored. My family's at a reptile show and I chose to stay home at the computer to give them (and me) some space. I'm looking for more surveys to take, but when I did a search they were all computer and educational surveys. I'm so frustrated! Surveys always make me feel better. Oh well.
The whole world's dying. I'm looking at the cars going past on the street, and I HATE them. Of course, horses and buggies weren't any better (poor horses!), and most people just refuse to adapt to electric cars powered by renewable energy sources. Trees are going away by the millions, a golf course is being built a block away from our house, and all but one of my 6-year-old rabbits now have health problems. The baby robin died at the wildlife center, and so did the little phoebe.
I miss the person who shall not be named in this entry. I saw him two days ago and I already miss him like you wouldn't believe. I hadn't seen him in months, and it will probably be months more before I am able to see him again. Because he stayed at the BBQ until 9:00 (nine o'clock, for gosh sakes) he was taken away. This just isn't right! He needs to have a life. He needs his friends. I hope he didn't get into any trouble for being away from his house for four hours, but he probably did.
Before he left, he talked to me. He brought up the fact that when he touched or even was near a tree, he could tell it was alive because there was always a life force coming from it. He told me what his life was like. He apologized to me for not being able to go to the movies with me and our friends. I'm afraid to give him his birthday presents because he would probably be murdered if THEY found out a girl gave something to him. Why does life have to be like this--for him, for me, for the Earth, for everyone?
Arrgh! The world is crazy. My life is crazy. Everything's going to hell.
Maybe I need to read A Language Older Than Words again--a great conservation book that tells you what's going on with the world, how to cope with it, and even how to make it better. It changed my life. It will do the same to you (especially Taerlin and Christine).