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A resolution, and an everyone's-doing-it-so-I'll-give-it-a-try survey [Jan. 16th, 2004|04:37 pm]
Amanda
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Recommend to me:
1. A movie.
2. A book.
3. A musical artist, song, or album.
4. An LJ user not on my friends list.
Then put this in your journal to see what people recommend to you!

It's been a hard day. I know that when people are busy they are supposedly making progress and not wasting their lives, but today I feel otherwise. I feel like I have wasted this day, although I keep telling myself I haven't. And I also keep telling myself, as long as I'm happy and sorting things out I am not wasting any of my life. But that's not really working. I don't know, I just feel...useless. But I know I'm not, so how does that work?
Do I want to become a functional member of society who does exactly as they're told? Of course not. But I want my life to matter, and I feel like it really isn't at this point in my life.
Maybe this is just another attempt of my subconscious to tell me that being happy is wrong, and that I need to revert back to my normal depressed self. But I won't, d*** it! It's time to kick all these stupid symptoms out of my head, so that I can actually allow myself to be happy for more than a few days. This is crucial. And I'm going to make sure it happens. I don't want to hide from myself anymore. I want to be happy. I want to be healthy. And it will happen.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2004-01-17 04:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for your support--I'm very determined to beat this once and for all.
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[User Picture]From: futileanimosity
2004-01-17 03:10 pm (UTC)
Depending on what you're goin for I'd suggest:

Movie- Cannibal the Musical (comedy) or Strangeland (horror)

Book- Anything by Amelia Atwater Rhodes.

Music- Dave Matthews Band- Grey Street or Big Eyed Fish. Or anything by AFI. :)

Live Journal User- Envyu (my friend Kelly, totally awesome)

Take care babe

<3April
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2004-01-17 04:12 pm (UTC)
Cool--thanks a lot :)
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[User Picture]From: thedarkcrystal
2004-01-18 05:11 am (UTC)
1- Umm... hmm. I don't know what I liked that you haven't watched.
2- "
3- "
4- Honestly I think you'd like all of them.

Wow, that was... informative.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2004-01-18 05:36 pm (UTC)
Haha...thanks!
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[User Picture]From: atopazdragon
2004-01-18 06:03 am (UTC)
1. A movie: Big Fish
2. A book: The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
3. A musical artist, song, or album: Shpongle -- Tales of the Inexpressible.
4. An LJ user not on my friends list: Exponential, fellow Capricorn.

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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2004-01-18 05:34 pm (UTC)
Thanks a lot--I'll check all those out :)
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