|Realizations from dreams
||[Jan. 29th, 2004|07:14 pm]
I'm dreading going to sleep tonight--I had some frighteningly disturbing dreams last night. Now that I recount them they seem kind of funny, but when I was sleeping they had this horrible creepy, hopeless feeling that came with them.
But I guess preferring to be awake is really a healthy change. My life doesn't really seem so bad compared to those dreams. And I know that others' lives are much, much worse.
So I shouldn't be complaining, right? After all, I have a choice to make my life better, but somehow I still am making it horrible for myself. Others do not have the choice for it to improve.
We went through some statistics of the world's problems today in history. And for once, I can actually remember some of them. It made me realize just how many issues there are to deal with in the world, how increasingly hopeless all this is. If we don't do something soon, I fear that the point will be gone where anything could have been accomplished, both with the earth and with ourselves.
And I'm scared that the world will not be able to support life very soon. Because of us. Because of everything we've done to it. And it worries me, to say the least.
In communications, I'm trying to get a speech together. We're supposed to talk about some part of our culture, and all I can think of is making Sicilian calzones. So I put together a rough draft of a speech about it. I'll re-read it later and see if it's good or not.
And that's about all I can think of right now. I hope you have had as interesting a day as I have had, and that you all have no nightmares anytime soon. I hope I don't either.