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Work worries--a LOT of them. I need reassurance... [Jan. 6th, 2006|08:51 pm]
Amanda
I haven't been feeling very included at work lately. I know I probably am and it's just my horrible worries getting in the way, but it seems everyone is in on something wonderful that I'm not. I hate when I get like that, not least because it's probably only how things seem, rather than how they actually are.

I got sort-of promoted today, though. Jannelle (who does the actual Barnes and Noble part of the store...trade books) has been way too busy to keep up with her job so I've been picked to split it with her. Not much, maybe a couple hours a day. She trained me on how to update the bestseller displays, order new fiction/nonfiction books, process staff recommendations, and organize that part of the store.
Strangely enough though, I'm not that excited about it. I know I'll be excited later and that it's a great thing, but I suppose it was just how today was. It just seemed, like I said, that I was taken for granted by a lot of people.
I know for a fact this was just a lot of coincidences and no one actually was taking me for granted, but besides being promoted I kinda felt like the "old gray mule" (and yes, I absolutely hate that term but can think of no better one for this). I guess it was because I'm now seen as kinda "higher" than the new people (who I like very much, and really want to fit in with), and "lower" than the more experienced people because I'm new among them. I'm not feeling like I fit in anywhere.
Also, people kept asking me for help in the morning from completely different ends of the store (sometimes two or three at once), and it was maddening. I know I should be happy my help is so valued, but instead I just felt used and taken advantage of. I just feel like everyone in the store is enjoying each other's company except me...having so much fun, and I'm stuck as the polite one who is there when she's needed.

I don't know how to handle this. Do you think these worries are justified? Do you have any words of advice or comfort?
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From: camillesantiago
2006-01-07 09:00 am (UTC)
I'm happy you are promoted. Good luck to you, and about the other people and not fitting in- they don't see you as that. Mainly, because their too busy thinking about their task and such. They all love you. And, this is always bound to happen with anything new- anew job, being in a new class etc. etc.I'd say just leave it alone and sooner or later you'll fit in and feel more comfortable in your new job at the bookstore.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-01-13 04:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you hun...you were right. You were SO right.
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From: camillesantiago
2006-01-13 04:52 pm (UTC)
Your welcome.
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[User Picture]From: just_sleeping
2006-01-07 11:51 am (UTC)
Congratulations on the promotion! I agree with what camillesantiago said. Hopefully it won't take long, but I bet you will feel like you fit in just fine in no time :)
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-01-13 04:48 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! Thankfully, you both were very right.
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From: treepatter
2006-01-07 12:51 pm (UTC)
I think you were probably just having a bad day, and my advice to you is the same advice i'v egiven you on other occasions: just try to see the big picture. You may be having a bad day (or a bad few days), but how does it fit in with the overall pattern of your life in the past year or so?
I hope you're having a better day today :)
*hugs*
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-01-13 04:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you, I think that's indeed the most effective thing to do. This infrequent little dilemma of mine will have to be my next self-improvement assignment, now that my weekend-angst has been overcome :P
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[User Picture]From: tetrakatus
2006-01-09 07:23 am (UTC)
Work for the love of working, for the love of doing something to improve the world. The rest is immaterial, or is only important in being able to use (or not be an impediment) to achieve the goal of helping this world out.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-01-13 04:39 pm (UTC)
I'll try to remember that. That's one good thing about working there. It's a pleasure to and I always feel useful (that is, besides when I get how I was that day).
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