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[Sep. 4th, 2003|07:40 pm]
Amanda
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Cassy's gone. She has been for over a day, and still I cannot fill the empty space where she used to be. And Mama has it even worse--she's the one who fed Cassy when she was a baby, and all this time she's been her rabbit. And she watched her leave this world (or perhaps she's still here somewhere--who knows?).
Well, she was able to leave us in the way I'm sure she or anyone else would want. She died from a natural cause--old age. The first of our rabbits to do so. Which makes me feel horrible about myself--we take such good care of our rabbits, so why are only two out of eight left? They're only six years old--sure, one year past their life expectancy, but still...it makes me sad.
Anyway, we buried her in a mound of dirt the squirrels had built up over the years. It's under the beautiful walnut tree--I'm sure she'll like it there. And the squirrels won't bother her, for we found no tunnels in that big mound. It's all excavated dirt.
And whenever we drive past that little hill, I'll think of Cassy, and that little personality that I'm glad I got to know, even if it caused us all such heartbreak.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-05 06:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! It's been exceedingly hard without her, but I'm managing. My mom is the one I'm worried about, but she should be all right in time as well. What's also worrying me is that I haven't cried yet. This always happens--I keep it all in until I get past the angry stage, which I'm in right now, and then I can finally cry.
And I agree--the term "pets" always seems so degrading. They're more than pets--like you said, they're members of the family. And when it's time for them to go, they are missed as such, and more.
Everything does remind me of Cassy right now. Especially the place where her cage used to be. Anyway, thank you for understanding. And thank you for being there. Your comment really helped. And if you ever need to talk to me, I'll be here as well.
*hugs*
Amanda
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[User Picture]From: xolauraxo
2003-09-05 07:02 pm (UTC)
omg....and didn't you have a dream about something happeneing to cassy?? that is sooo freaking weird. it's like you saw the future, almost.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-05 08:23 pm (UTC)
Yeah, but that was after we knew she was dying. We weren't 100% sure yet, though. So I saw the future in a way, but it had already been predicted ahead of time.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-06 02:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you--I'm very sorry to hear that this has happened to you as well. It's the most horrible feeling to know that they are gone, so I can understand you not wanting to talk about it.
*hugs*
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From: treepatter
2003-09-06 05:21 am (UTC)
I'm very sorry to hear this. You can be close to an animal in a very special way, and when they are no longer around, it's not an easy adjustment. You are lucky though, to have all those other animls there with you to help you get through this.
*hugs*
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-06 02:02 pm (UTC)
Thank you--yeah, once again Minuet has helped me through another hard time. She always cheers me up. The other animals have helped, but she has in particular.
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