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I'm exhausted and upset and depressed (that fast, see?) [May. 4th, 2006|05:12 pm]
Amanda
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I'm in a foul-ass mood. Not even the Internet is fulfilling anymore. I don't like life very much if it's this tiring. Or my job, for that matter. There's only one more week to go before the end, and all I can think of is how tired I am.
Nonstop work/school days all this week. I keep trying to visualize the money, but that's not even working anymore. Today brought long lines of nonstop, foul-mouthed, rude, ungrateful customers. It also brought me a raging tension headache. I used to LOVE work--but this week, it's like this foul-tasting medicine I have to swallow without complaint.
My voice is tired--all this vocal effort being put out to customers who don't give a damn anyway. When Ari called, I had to tell him to call later because it felt like if I said ONE more thing to anybody, I'd collapse under the weight of my own words.
I don't like having his call feel like an annoyance. I want to be excited about being there so soon! But now it seems that being excited would only waste valuable energy. There's so much being demanded of me, all at once.

I'm also finally realizing how little money $7 an hour is. I've worked my ass off today, drained all my mental and physical essence and spoiled my mood--all for $56 minus tax. It used to seem like so much money...
I can't even MASTURBATE, I'm so tired. This is what corporations do to me, and they shouldn't have this horrible power over what I can and can't do. I want my happiness back, DAMN IT--right now!

Also, time and again lately--I get an e-mail and get all excited, only to find out it's some stupid forward or an advertisement. Or I hear the phone ring, only to find out it's TELEMARKETERS. And when someone DOES miraculously call or e-mail or comment, I'm too tired to appreciate it anyway!
Well, time to expel some mental juice on homework...whoohooooo, right?

Am I seriously gonna be ok? At times like these, I childishly wish someone was there to rock me to sleep and comfort me and say everything will be alright.
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-04 05:59 pm (UTC)
I should warn you... don't expect to get $7/hr in NJ.

They have a lower minimum wage than Cali. If you got the same (25c over minimum) you'll get $6.40 there.

Be glad it doesn't have the federal minimum, which would be another dollar less.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-04 06:12 pm (UTC)
Yeah. I'd already realized that. More good news to add to the pile, eh?
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-04 06:26 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

This is why I'm moving to Portland. $7.50 minimum wage AND no sales tax.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:42 am (UTC)
Daaaaaamn. But then again, how expensive is housing?
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-07 12:20 pm (UTC)
Not too shabby. We're seeing 2 bedroom places for 700 a month or less.

http://www.rent.com/rentals/oregon/portland-vancouver-and-vicinity/portland/430546/2/?sp=1
Check that one out. 2 bed, 2 bath, JACUZZI TUB
(Login with bubbalove@nospam.com, password bubbalove)

700 bucks.

Or check out the ads on http://portland.craigslist.org/apa/
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-08 02:41 pm (UTC)
Damn...nice. Though, $700 is still sooooo much money! Not so much for two people though, it's true.
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-08 03:04 pm (UTC)
Consider this.

Alli lives in Irvine, which is Orange County.

She's renting one ROOM in a 4 bedroom apartment (it's on campus housing, no less)

$575 a month is her share. That's CHEAP for Irvine.

Wanna see how much a 2 bedroom place costs?
http://orangecounty.craigslist.org/cgi-bin/search?areaID=103&subAreaID=0&query=irvine&catAbbreviation=apa&minAsk=min&maxAsk=max&bedrooms=2

Yeah.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-12 06:40 am (UTC)
...eww. California, home sweet home. *vomits* lol.
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[User Picture]From: rewhite
2006-05-05 11:13 am (UTC)
It's cheeper to live here because of the lower minimum wage. Plus, there's more jobs. Oh, and fuel prices are rather low out here because of much lower taxes (though they want to raise them). Add to that the most extensive and thorough public transportation in the country, and things are pretty nice.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:34 am (UTC)
Woohoo! That's music to my ears at this point :)
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-07 12:24 pm (UTC)
Lower minimum wage isn't always cheaper. My boyfriend lives in North Carolina, where the min wage is $5.15, and 800 is the average per month for a 2 bedroom, which is more expensive than Portland, which has higher taxes, and a much higher min wage (and also has a top-rated transit system)
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[User Picture]From: rewhite
2006-05-09 02:42 pm (UTC)
The difference is that North Carolina is in the midst of a major boom. That's the exception, not the rule. There's a ripple effect that results from shifts in the minimum wage. Everybody above the basest of workers makes a certain amount above it. Everybody wants more

When the minimum wage is higher, the work done at minimum wage and all the other wages that would have to be adjusted is not made more valuable, so the payment simply becomes worth less.

I shouldn't have said how cheep it is. It is rather that money is worth more here. That speaks nothing to the value of things out here. Here, like North Carolina, there is a boom. Ours resultant of nothing other than the boom in NYC coupled with a good economy, don't think that I can credit the State with the good state of affairs. Because lots of people want housing here and there, much more than there is available, it becomes more valuable.

In North Carolina, the prices will come down because there is a lot of building going on. The higher prices are insentive for the builders to build until the supply/demand intersection brings prices down to such a place that the incentive ceases for a while. Eventually, an equalibrium will be achieved, and housing prices there will deflate to where they ought be.

That won't happen here. There are major environmental restrictions on new construction. There is a solid stretch of city, suburb, and rare industry from well beyond New York City all the way to Princeton, cutting past the Pine Barrans and then curving up from South Jersey, leaving Vineland unto itself, and eventually reaching the Delaware and crossing into Pennsylvania, with Trenton at the north of this crossing and Philadelphia/Camden at the south. There is no more room. Every house around here is being added on to. Old houses on large lots are being torn down and five put up in their place. A few places are putting up low-rise appartments. Cranford is experimenting with a mixed use low-rise commercial/residential and parking garage building next to their train station. Rahway is tearing down most of the century-old downtown to make way for more. My own shabby house, if fixed up, is about half-a-million dollars. Our housing prices will remain inflated unless something terrible happens in NYC.
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-07 12:32 pm (UTC)
Where did you get that icon? Can I swipe it?
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[User Picture]From: rewhite
2006-05-09 02:26 pm (UTC)
Sure.
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From: camillesantiago
2006-05-04 06:19 pm (UTC)
We all go through these moments when you can't even picture your happy thought. You act like your happy, but inside you know that your upset, tired, and not really ready to deal with any harsh reality that may have come up. Don't lose hope. Follow the light out of the tunnel and happiness will be yours.

The last sentence sounds like a fourtune cookie sort of.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:43 am (UTC)
It does! I'd thought that exact same thing, lol :P
And yeah, I'll just have to. It will be here soon, before I know it :)
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From: turkeysock
2006-05-04 06:41 pm (UTC)
aww you'll be okay..you're just smashed full of stress and anxiety, it was bound to happen..it will pass and you'll be on your way to boundless happy times with Ari :D
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:41 am (UTC)
Yaaaay! I've just gotta keep thinking that, I guess.
"Just keep swimming..." lol.
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[User Picture]From: glacier_kitty
2006-05-04 06:56 pm (UTC)
I think everyone's been depressed and tired this week...every day this week I've freaked out over little things and I've been SO stressed I've felt like I was getting sick. You will be ok...I think it's something in the air that's making people tired and depressed. Also, I miss Frank DellaPenna so much it hurts...badly...I never missed Nick this much. It'll pass, Amanda *hugs*
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:40 am (UTC)
I think so too--maybe it's the pollen in the air :P Or, more likely, the bad mood's just spreading. It helps a tiny bit to know this, thank you.
And Frank will be back!! Have you e-mailed him since? That may make you feel better.
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[User Picture]From: glacier_kitty
2006-05-07 07:59 am (UTC)
I've emailed him twice but he only responded the first time...I'd email him but I don't wanna annoy him lol...ah well, I'll see him again next week :)
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[User Picture]From: pieni
2006-05-05 03:01 am (UTC)
I'm sure you'll be fine. *hugs*
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:38 am (UTC)
Thank you hun. I hope to goodness so--one more week, and I'll know one way or the other.
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From: (Anonymous)
2006-05-05 07:28 am (UTC)
You're so tired you can't even MASTURBATE eh? Bummer! A sure sign it's time to move on! As an optimist as well as a masturbator I strongly suspect everything will be alright! Cheers!

californiamike.blogspot.com (who has never had that problem!)
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[User Picture]From: rewhite
2006-05-05 10:34 am (UTC)
Unfortunately, as a college student with a not-very-paternal father, she needs the money.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:36 am (UTC)
You seem to take much more novelty out of being a biological organism than people should. We are, yes...with OR without the redundance of common facts.
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[User Picture]From: pseudolollipop
2006-05-06 04:21 pm (UTC)
Yes you are going to be okay. You're just in the doldrums, like in The Phantom Tollbooth. Seriously sucky days happen but they only make great days that much better. Ya know? Haha, 7$ an hour, try 6.75$ now that is suckitude. I know its only a quarter less, but do you know how much difference some silvers make :-P
Oh well, at least you'll be making bank and while now the money doesn't seem worth it, when you've got the money in your hand I'm sure it'll be very very nice.
Oh yeah and FUCK rude customers. Hehe yeah, just used my foulmouth, but at least it was to be supportive. :-P
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-07 07:15 am (UTC)
Good point hun--I'll just keep thinking of that extra quarter (since yeah, $6.75 is minimum wage here). I do feel a bit better now.
And supportive foul-mouthed-ness is the BEST way to be supportive--yes, fuck 'em right up the ass. That'll learn 'em! lol.
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[User Picture]From: palmer_kun
2006-05-07 12:29 pm (UTC)
The rule of thumb is simple.

If you're working 40 hours a week, year round... then $1 an hour = $2000 a year, or more to the point, $80 per paycheck.
So 25c is only a $20 difference if you're working full time. As you won't be, the difference will be significantly less.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-05-08 05:50 am (UTC)
But, $20 is 20 whole DOLLARS! lol.
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