|whose ducky you are?
||[May. 18th, 2006|08:59 am]
|||||"bob seger's gayest hits"||]|
Well, I'm here and I'm doing GREAT! There hasn't been much time to update, but there will be soon. I'll be registering today at Kean, and Prom's tomorrow, and Ari's sooooooooo damn sweet (though unfortunately is at school right now)...and it's so good to be here!
Once there is time, a picture post will come and you all will be spammed to the utmost nether region by some nauseatingly sentimental captions and images. And I'll be saying "yaaaaay!". Or, something.
His lovely, bizarre family's even better than ever, and so is New Jersey. I've missed this and I've missed them, even though last time I had no idea that I'd be living here so very soon.
And all this time, I was worrying that the nine months apart from Ari would make us lose the comfort and attraction of last summer. And, holy goodness...I didn't need to worry. The tinglies, the TINGLIES...they've multiplied! I never thought it possible that one person could give so many. If all goes well, I won't die one of these days from Ari-induced overtinglyrification. I've come close many a time :P
And the ENDEARMENT FACTOR...yeah, I'd be doing better right now if I could just get over the shock of everything actually working out, and him being wonderful and fulfilling, and feeling so damn right to me. And I'd forgotten the way he looks at me, and how gorgeous he is, and the way he smiles, and how cute that tiny lisp of his sounds, and how nice his hair smells, and...(yes I'll stop now :P). Right now my mind's just accepting everything as normal, no matter how much I scream at it that it's actually happening. It knows it is, but it's still in shock that everything IS so incredibly exciting so it doesn't yet feel like it is even though I know it is...does that make sense?
Same with living in New Jersey, and registering at a UNIVERSITY where I've been accepted and where I don't have to worry about life-or-death funds!
This still hasn't sunk in yet, and I can't wait for when it finally does. I REALLY feel the distance from Mama and Crystal and Julian and Holly and Cristopher and Minuet and work and Mary and school and EVERYBODY else...that part has sunk in. It's heartbreaking, but it's what had to happen.