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*head whirls* [Aug. 22nd, 2006|10:28 am]
Amanda
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Two weeks til classes start. Two weeks til I move into the Hilton dorm. Crazy. My life will change all over again. In a way I'm excited, but in another way I'm sad it's gotten here so fast. I'd started to come to peace with not doing something "useful" every second. I've also started to appreciate myself as I should. Plus, I'm gonna miss living with Ari (he's so sweet!). And I won't be seeing his family every day either.

Oh well, I'm looking forward to classes. Ari will still be around and so will his family. It will be exciting to live in the dorms and meet new people. I start work at the Kean bookstore on Monday. It will be exciting to walk around a campus again. I'm perplexed about what it'll be like to have a roommate, so I'm just hoping she's not gonna be a bitch, in all honesty. I can cope otherwise.
I'll be busy again, too. Two jobs, five courses, Ari, food, and sleep. I'm looking forward to this being my life, strangely enough.

One of my other thoughts was, "my music will be there, so everything will be alright!". I mean, it's faithful. It's portable. It won't leave me. It comforts me. I'm beginning to rediscover it.
The shock of moving numbed my personality for a long time and I've been reaching out and finding it again like mad, now. I've also been rediscovering music.



MOODY BLUES LYRICS
"Your Wildest Dreams"

Once upon a time
Once when you were mine
I remember skies
Reflected in your eyes
I wonder where you are
I wonder if you
Think about me
Once upon a time
In your wildest dreams

Once the world was new
Our bodies felt the morning dew
That greets the brand new day
We couldn't tear ourselves away
I wonder if you care
I wonder if you still remember
Once upon a time
In your wildest dreams

And when the music plays
And when the words are
Touched with sorrow
When the music plays
I hear the sound
I had to follow
Once upon a time
Once beneath the stars
The universe was ours
Love was all we knew
And all I knew was you
I wonder if you know
I wonder if you think about it
Once upon a time
In your wildest dreams

And when the music plays
And when the words are
Touched with sorrow
When the music plays
And when the music plays
I hear the sound
I had to follow
Once upon a time

Once upon a time
Once when you were mine
I remember skies
Mirrored in your eyes
I wonder where you are
I wonder if you
Think about me
Once upon a time
In your wildest dreams
In your wildest dreams
In your wildest dreams


Chicago lyrics--Feel
So everybody's pulling you in all directions
You don't know how much longer to take it
So you've learned how to fake it

That smile on the outside's fading fast
Like the things that you thought for sure would last
But they didn't
You know something's missing
Is it your life you're not living?


Your heart is cold, your soul is numb
You don't like who you've become
You played the game and paid the cost for long enough
So grab the reins, yeah, take the wheel
Lose what's not and keep what's real
It's not too late,
Just close your eyes and feel, feel

You can't tell if you're happy or sad
Can't tell the good from bad
It's senseless
To waste your senses
Maybe stop thinking with your head
Start using your heart instead
Just try it
You just might like it
Aren't you dying to start livin'?


Every breath that's going thru you
Take each day that's given to you
To love back the ones who love you


You can't tell if you're happy or sad
Can't tell the good from the bad
Feel and stop thinking with your head
Start using your heart instead

Your heart is cold, your soul is numb
Yeah, yeah, yeah...
You've played the game for long enough, oh, no, no,
Everybody's pulling you in all directions.
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Comments:
[User Picture]From: glacier_kitty
2006-08-23 12:25 am (UTC)
Music is one of the best things to be obsessed about :)
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-08-23 03:19 pm (UTC)
Ohh yes it is.
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