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Pirates, noise, LJ, anorexia (any advice?) [Sep. 19th, 2006|10:05 am]
Amanda
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I love LJ! For one day out of the year, we have "mateys" instead of friends :) Plus, Frank looks so becoming as a pirate. I'm not going to try to talk like a pirate though because I suck at it. Royally.
EDIT: OMG, "Update Captain's Log"!
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Things are going very well here. School's finally getting more interesting (note: this reads as "I finally have more homework") and I'm getting used to being in such a different phase of my life.
The only thing is the sleep factor--college students make way too much noise at night! I've been woken up 3-4 times most nights, which has left me quite sleep-deprived. Tempted to put an anonymous flyer on the walls saying "NO LOUD TALKING AND/OR LOITERING IN THE HALLS AFTER 10PM. Your floormates value sleep!" or something. Or just pull myself out of my room and smack whoever keeps cackling at 2am. Bastards.
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I need to get to a point where this journal feels like an extension of me again. My life has changed dramatically in a very short time so I guess that's why. It's just feels like LJ unattached itself somewhere along the way. This journal feels like a tool now; it used to feel like my voice.
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As many of you know, I've been trying to gain weight for years. To try and cope with my speeding metabolism and look as I had before the anorexia took half of me away.
Well, I've gotten to a good weight now. I look great, though much more than this would be too much. I'm worrying if I'll be able to stop looking at fat and calorie content as "the more energy, the better", and succeed in levelling off my weight gain. Will I just keep gaining and become overweight? Or will I somehow go into another diet, go overboard, and lose contol of my sanity again? I'm more afraid of losing weight than I am of gaining it, but both outcomes scare me. I just want to stay the way I am and the neurotic part of me is scared because at this point, there's no way of knowing what will happen.
I need a bit of comfort if you can give it. I know one thing though: my muscles look damn good. I finally look properly Sicilian!
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From: ex_la_foret689
2006-09-19 04:40 pm (UTC)
From someone who's lived in a dorm: earplugs are your friend. And they're really cheap to buy.

*hugs* I'm like that too right now. I find it hard to maintain a weight and I'm paranoid of being super anorexic skinny again, but I'm also paranoid of being overweight again (I have been both in recent years). But we can do it! Just think positive and try to listen to when your body is hungry and when it is full.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-09-23 07:37 pm (UTC)
That's about as good advice as any. I need to pay more attention to when I really need food.
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[User Picture]From: pieni
2006-09-20 12:04 am (UTC)
I recommend the earplugs as well. They'll probably feel weird at first, and you will also have to figure out a way that you'll hear your alarm clock or whatever you use to wake up, but once you have, you'll sleep much better. :)
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-09-23 07:36 pm (UTC)
Thank you hun. I'll definitely keep that in mind as a last resort (though the alarm clock thing is what's been preventing me from it).
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[User Picture]From: glacier_kitty
2006-09-20 02:53 am (UTC)
college students make way too much noise at night!

That happened when I went to Europe...after curfew lotsa people were talking outside the door of my room when I wanted to sleep...I ended up crying. Then different groups from ours made noise and it was annoying...

Yay for looking properly Sicilian...YOU HAVE THE HAND GESTURES TO PROVE IT TOO!
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2006-09-23 07:30 pm (UTC)
I can see why you would cry. I have on several occasions out of pure frustration.
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