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The unheard prayer that's swallowed up by the night. [Jan. 5th, 2007|02:13 am]
Amanda
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Insomnia truly is for the damned. This hour is for sleepers, and if I was lucky enough I would be one of them. Do me a favor folks: don't take a full night's sleep for granted. This is the fifth night in a row I've sat awake long into the night, tired as hell and praying for sleep to come. I've dreaded the night so much. Tired all the time, yet I lay down to bed and nothing happens. I've tried every possible thing over the long hours and nothing's worked. Even sleeping pills do nothing. All they do is make me more uselessly tired. And that's right, I have work at nine tomorrow as always.

It feels like everyone in the world is sleeping and therefore unreachable, cloistered oblivious in their happy dreaming worlds without me. I'm so damn lonely and tired and it's hours until I have to "wake up". I will wake exhausted tomorrow only if I happen to be gifted with sleep before the night is over.

This is worse than hell. What have I done? Night after night, it's never-ending. These hours are not meant for me. Seclusion, exhaustion, depression, desperation, the eternally dark night just outside my window. I pray for it to end. What I wouldn't give for anybody's voice, just to know someone else is alive.
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[User Picture]From: unluvedpenguin3
2007-01-05 07:31 am (UTC)
why lonely o_o

gotta luv sleepless nites o_0
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2007-01-05 07:37 am (UTC)
Because everyone else is long asleep and unreachable, on the other side of the house. And I wouldn't make anyone an unwilling part of my nighttime curse anyway.
And naw, sleepless nights are more than horrific. I'm ready to make my internal clock die a long and painful death for what it's done to my life :(
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[User Picture]From: unluvedpenguin3
2007-01-05 07:40 am (UTC)
ROFLMAO im sure theres things u can do to keep urself awake.

im on for another 30 mins if u wanna hollar
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[User Picture]From: glacier_kitty
2007-01-05 10:25 pm (UTC)
What's the matter with you? Why do you always leave stupid comments? It's like you don't care about Amanda or something..
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[User Picture]From: unluvedpenguin3
2007-01-05 10:30 pm (UTC)
ummmm wtf . . .
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[User Picture]From: mrfantastico
2007-01-05 03:57 pm (UTC)
WELCOME TO MY WORLD

...Dont touch anything!
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[User Picture]From: thedarkcrystal
2007-01-05 09:33 pm (UTC)
My thoughts exactly...
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[User Picture]From: stevefarrell
2007-01-05 11:10 pm (UTC)
I was awake until 5am last night. Although that was kind of intentional.
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