||[Jan. 18th, 2007|11:23 pm]
|||||weird and good||]|
Damn I feel weird. This whole week's been like a whirlwind--I cling to the few remnants of my old life in desperation.
Don't get me wrong, things are good...they're just so horribly different. Everything about my life makes me feel so disconnected. I hope to dear God that this life of mine becomes familiar someday.
I've also been having insomnia from sheer hell. What happened? I used to sleep like the dead up til a few years ago. Now, the slightest disturbance pulls me from a fitful sleep I'd worked hours to achieve in the first place, leaving me back at square one again. Life's funny little twists and turns...
It snowed today for the first time. My second time in snow in my whole life and it was magical. Only a tiny bit and it melted instantly, but it did remind me that the world is beautiful. Ari fetched me from the bookstore and we ran out to see it together. Yeah, that's exactly what I'd waited for; exactly what I'd expected snow to be like.
So, yeah. Weird and good. Story of my life.