|Please tell me what you think
||[Sep. 18th, 2003|08:13 pm]
I hope I'm ready for the test tomorrow--I've studied for two hours, and I think any more will erase everything I've learned already, or something to that degree.
Today was a hard day, but we got through it. And even better--it's the end of the day and I don't feel dead like usual. I guess knowing I'm as well as I'll ever be helped that.
Oh yeah, some mildly amusing things happened today--we were in Safeway and dropped a jug of milk. The plastic cracked and the milk soon was everywhere. After we dealt with the milk incident and got to the car, we found a spilt cup of yogurt all over the floor of the car, with no clue where it came from. We cleaned it up at home, then later when I opened the fridge to make dinner, a package of ranch dressing fell on the floor and splattered everywhere. Pretty weird, huh? Are we just klutzy, or is a weird twilight zone thing going on?
Anyway, it was weird. And I don't know whether or not to stay with my therapist. Today I told her, after being asked, my favorite foods. She cautioned me, "Make sure you don't gorge", or something like that, and I got so mad. That is not something to tell a recovering anorexic! And she said a bunch of other little things that bothered me, and tried to force me to say hi to a complete stranger in the next three weeks, to rid me of my shyness. The idea of that just scares the heck out of me.
Anyway, what do you guys think? If it were you, would you stay with a therapist in this situation? I have mixed feelings because she has been my therapist since the beginning, and has helped me through a lot. But she seems to have issues with weight herself and is close-minded about anyone who is a healthy weight (like myself) or anything higher. *end of rant*
Anyway, if you can, please tell me what you think.