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Memories, and never's [Oct. 31st, 2003|07:50 am]
Amanda
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[Listening to |Oingo Boingo--"Dead Man's Party"]

Yay--Halloween!
It's raining though, so that should be interesting. Maybe we won't have to go on the field trip.
I'll take pictures of my costume later--it's really pretty :)

I miss my childhood. I used to have such an imagination, and now it's just...gone. Or nearly gone. I remember when I used to throw birthday parties for my stuffed animals, and when it was one's turn she burnt her nose on the fake candles while trying to blow them out. So I got out my doctor's kit and gave her a band-aid. That made it all better.
And I remember Halloween--I always dressed up as cats or rabbits. When I got older, up to last year, I was assorted faeries. And today I'm Luthien Tinuviel.
And I remember eating half of my mountain of candy on Halloween night one year--I never did that again. And I never will. Anorexia works like that--too many never's come with this disease. And I'm sick of it, even sicker than that candy made me.
To change the subject, I hope you all have a great Halloween! I should, although this day will be quite hectic for me. School, possible field trip, counseling appointment, pictures, trick-or-treating (possibly), and then my day should be pretty much over.
Tomorrow will be the wildlife center and Greg's birthday party.
Oh yeah--I got him and my grandma presents yesterday, so that's a load off my mind. Anyway, good-bye! Talk to y'all later!
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-10-31 07:31 pm (UTC)
Thanks--you're right. I've learned so much because of it, and without this disease I would be a different person...which definitely would not be a good thing.
And thank you--I hope you have a great day too :)
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[User Picture]From: brithla
2003-10-31 06:57 pm (UTC)
I know what you mean about childhood, but I still play with my dolls! :D (Sort of...) And about how you said anorexia has brought too many nevers, think about all the posibilities life has for you instead. :)
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-10-31 07:28 pm (UTC)
Yay--I still play with my dolls too :)
Thanks--I've never really looked at anorexia in that way before, but you're right. There's so much that's still out there.
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