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[Jul. 20th, 2003|07:38 pm]
Amanda
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My family looked at photo albums today. For some reason, looking at my baby pictures made me queasy. Perhaps it's just all the memories that did it. And also the fact that everyone else has basically the same face (only older) from when they were a baby, and I look completely different now from how I did then. It's weird.
Anyway, once again I'm depressed. I thought my childhood would never end, but already I'm grown up. It's sad, in a way, because I will never be a child again, never enjoy school, and never not worry about my past or my future like I used to. I now feel mortal, too mortal, where in the past I felt as if I would never get old--that that point in my life was too far away for me to deal with.
Now I can see why I haven't looked at my baby pictures in years.
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[User Picture]From: burasama
2003-07-20 08:08 pm (UTC)
I don't like to look at my baby pictures. I have hard time identifying people that I know now from their baby pictures. It's creepy, to me, too.
I can also relate to you about losing childhood. I still have to stop myself from saying that I'm in high school and the ubiquitous “when I grow up.” I know it's not the same thing, but I can somewhat relate.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-07-21 08:10 am (UTC)

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Thanks--it helps to know that someone can relate to this. And your situation doesn't sound that different from mine. Just try to remember that you're still young and I'll try to do my part to do the same.
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From: taer_silveroak
2003-07-20 09:40 pm (UTC)
Just be sure to look forward so you don't fall backward over anything... stop and think about what you have and what you can do. You have SO much.... :)
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-07-21 08:02 am (UTC)

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Thanks--I'll try to remember that advice.
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From: treepatter
2003-07-24 01:59 am (UTC)
I often get depressed when i think about my childhood.
And of course, looking at pictures only stirs these things up. But as your friend said, it's what you're doing and who you are now that matters.
Don't know if i said this yet, but i'm glad i met you;
i think you're very cool.
peace
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-07-24 03:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much--I'm very glad I met you too. The more I learn about you, the cooler you seem.
I'll try to take everyone's advice about this post into consideration. And try not to get too depressed about your childhood. I'll try to do the same.
Thanks for your comment.
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