|Automatic writing (middle section)
||[Aug. 17th, 2003|08:22 pm]
I'm not doing well today. I have a touch of heat stroke--I'm shaky, dizzy, my head hurts, and I have chills. Fun. But it was worth it to go to the party.
It's been a really good day computer-wise. I had two good conversations with misssc and pixiefairyhaze (in alphabetical order). And I had a nice chat via e-mail with dancenfree as well.
I can't believe I have twenty-one friends, and I'm thankful for every one of them. And I'm also thankful for my non-lj friends, and my family, and every plant and animal I've ever met.
The world can be so beautiful sometimes that it almost makes me cry, yet at other times it's a living hell. It all depends on my mood, and I need to realize that outside myself, things are much different. The world changes, yes, but not as drasically as I do, as we all do. The world must look so different when looked at from another point of view, from another pair of eyes, and yet I will never see it in eyes other than my own. What I need to do to make the world better for me is to change how I see the world. I need to change how my eyes see it, and see it in a more positive (or perhaps not so positive) light.
I'm trying automatic writing today, and the product of it is above. It does not fully make sense even to me, but perhaps it will in time--who knows? What do you think it means?