|It's so good to be emotional :)
||[Jan. 5th, 2006|08:19 pm]
The sunset was so gorgeous tonight. Deep golden crimson red in a purple sky, growing increasingly more fiery as time went on. Then, within sixty seconds it went from full splendour to a muddy grey. Made me think about a lot of things.
Life really is precious and beautiful. I'm beginning to see this as the days go by. I'm feeling more and more enlightened. Everything I improve about myself and my views gives me even more persistence to try harder on whatever is to come next.
I know this process is nowhere near finished (it has scarcely begun!), but somehow this thought is comforting. I will never make myself perfect, but that's wonderful because I'll never run out of things to try harder on. I'll never run out of things to learn, to accomplish and appreciate.
I have been given such a tremendous gift in this. If anything, I'm happy I went through the anorexia! If I hadn't, I would never have known how wonderful it was to recover; to know I did it and COULD do it, just for myself. If given the choice, I'd do it all over again.
Because, I know things would never have been like this otherwise. Who knows if I would have had confidence, a fulfilling job, caring friends, a love who means the world, motivation, great potential, and such or not?
All I know is that if I did, I wouldn't have appreciated them like I now do. They're the world to me, and I'm never letting them go. I love this life, and this is so damn beautiful I think I'm gonna cry again.