|gaaawd, why does this always happen?
||[Jan. 16th, 2006|07:44 pm]
Has everyone forgotten about me? Where are you? Speak to me!! Why are you ignoring me?? Why are you so far away?? Can you see this? Why can't I feel you anymore? Do you still care? Do you even read anything I've been writing anymore? What on earth is wrong with me, why am I making all this drama??!
I feel like crying. Thought looking at old pictures would help but they only made me lonelier, oh joy. The rabbits are all dead now...I'm grown up and my family's far away...I found more pictures of me being scarily thin....why did that have to happen? Music is here, but music is empty. It's just recordings-- no longer living, breathing sources of life or love. Just a dim memory of it. This makes it even worse.
Are you there? Please, are you there? Anyone??
[You can see why I want to frickin slap myself when I'm like this. If this is what emo angst is like, you can count me out!]