||[Mar. 5th, 2006|08:10 am]
I wrote this as a comment, and decided to elaborate on it and turn into an entry. This is exactly how I've been feeling about death lately. It doesn't bother me as much as it used to; I actually find it strangely beautiful. This is why:
You do realize that since I wrote this post, I have had little fear of one day dying. Death happens...it is as natural and beautiful as birth or living, and every living thing who has ever lived has either died, or will in time.
Dying after a good life is like the end of a really good book. You're so sad to be finished with it, and yet it's strangely satisfying because it ended in just the right way, and (hopefully) just at the right time. It's upsetting, yet the end is exactly how it should be.
And yet, death is not the end. There's so much more after this, even if we don't know exactly what it is. This life is to be enjoyed. This life is made for learning, and living, and loving. That's why death is here--it is a constant reminder of just how precious life really is...it encourages us to enjoy and treasure it, for it is finite and can be lost at any moment.
I would not trade anything for immortality. I never want to take the little things in this existence for granted. The process of growing weary of life is infinitely worse than anything death has to offer.
I'd kinda like to be immortal. However I'd still like the ability to give up that immortality and just die if I felt there was nothing left to live for or to see or do.
Ah yes, I think that this is where the joys of immortality would lie. Though, what would frighten me about that would have that control in my hands. I wouldn't be able to treasure life in the same way if I knew I had that sort of power over it...if I knew that I could stay until whenever I chose.
Though yeah, that'd be cool. If there are multiple lives, I'd be willing to try that sort of immortality for one of them, and leave the rest up to whatever powers control those things.
Or it would be cool to just be a Vampire and ripp some assholes head off with my Vampire strength. Hopefully It wouldn't be the kind of Vampire where you instantly lose your soul and are evil but if so oh well. :-p
lol...but becoming evil and losing your soul only increases your Vampire Potency of Doom! It's sooooo worth it ;)
Life would be kinda boring if you were immortal...and VERY sad...like Highlander. I'm scared of death but this post made me less scared...thanks!
No it wouldn't! You could carry around a cool Katana and chop people's heads off and hang with Sean Conery! Life would be awesome! :-p
....nuuu, but he died! WE MUST AVENGE SEAN CONNERY! And my wife, my wife...she got old so fast! *sobs*
You're very welcome hun...it made me less scared too. I'm finding that seeing it like this makes things seem so much more natural.
It's not death, itself, that frightens me. It's afterwards. And I don't mean the Afterlife. The one thing I'm more terrified of than anything else . . . is after death, becoming a lost and wandering soul. See, if there IS a Heaven, I'd like to go. Shit, even if there's a HELL . . . just put me SOMEWHERE. Don't let me remain HERE wandering.
I think we all can share in that fear. But, I doubt you will. Your will seems too strong to get stuck like that.
Well, I suppose that I'll be comfortable with dying by the time I die. I'm not comfortable with it yet, and I know I will. I just wish life weren't so short. There're such events up ahead, and it'll take much more cunniving and cunning to ensure that, after us, things will continue to develop and... resurface as they ought.
So many people planning for a crisis, but who thinks on how to restore normalcy after surviving. Survivalism is just the beginning. You can't live on canned food and bottled water forever. Your arms will run out of ammunition and your fuel will run low. Your lighters will run out of fuel and you'd better find a good source of water or have some way to purify it in perpetuitum. So many things are taken for granted.
Think about it. Just how much do you know to be able, not just to survive, but to ensure your survival and the survival of your descendants. Do you know enough to even fudge agriculture. Can you build a dynamo? Simple steam engine? Can you build a heatpump for refrigeration or, if you're really well off, household cooling? Do you know anything about roads? Sanitation? Horology? Telecommunications? Aircraft?
Could you fortify a site in an emergency? Could you fight off a wild man to protect your only meal for the next week? Can you handle a firearm? Fudge explosives? Incendiaries? Poison gas? Can you defend against poison gas? Do you know how to make, repair, or pick locks? Can you piece together a radio from a razor, some wire, a fence, and some stiff paper with a lighter?
I don't know all of what I just listed. I also know that there's a lot more to know that what I just listed. What I do know is a lot of what I listed, and other things I know partially. Put me together with a few like-minded people, and you could rebuild civilization. I can't, myself, be a whole encyclopedia of survival. I worry about how much it'll take to teach all this to those who will follow me.
Sorry about that, got a little carried away.
Aw hun, I understand that. I'm sure you'll get more comfortable with it eventually...at least you know why you aren't. Many people don't.