|At least one thing has gotten better.
||[Mar. 19th, 2006|11:44 am]
Ari called. He said he really needed to hear my voice. I didn't scare him last night, he just knew he wouldn't be able to help me. I knew that too. It wasn't good. Things seem better now. I was able to cry, he did too. It's rare for him to be this emotional. He was reminding me of how I usually am. It's good he can cry sometimes. Things have been hard lately, we both need it. I pretty much am back to normal now as far as my emotions associated with him--the crying did it. I'm glad for that! |
Now I need to make the rest of them follow. I need to make myself see life again. If nothing else, tomorrow's Monday. Class will make me feel like a human being again, whatever else happens. But, I want the satisfacion of doing this on my own before then. Let's see if I can.