Maybe it's the headache I woke up with, or the fact that there are no more breakfast foods here. Which means, in short, I need to spend a whole bunch of money on food yet again, and need to muster my strength (strength I REALLY should have but don't) to make a sandwich because there's little else left. And I have no job still....so there's no more money coming in to pay for groceries. The amount in my bank account is going down down doooooown...the university bookstore will hopefully hire me in August, but can I wait until August?
I thought I had one of those jobs in the bag a few days ago. They seemed impressed with me, after all. But...then I called them to check on my application and they said I need to wait for the manager to call me in the next 2-3 weeks to schedule an interview (after aptly adding "IF the manager is interested"...). And meanwhile, everyone around me is getting these jobs so frickin' easily, and I'm just sitting here, and that means the summer hiring season is gonna be over soon and I'll be out of time, and I'm just twiddling my thumbs waiting for Barnes and Noble...
Yet if I applied for another job, it'd be the same thing.
What is it about me? Am I cursed? It took me five months of searching before I even got a job at my college bookstore. I turned in thirty-five applications, called in to check on them, etc...and only got THREE interviews total. If the companies were to observe me working in my diligent way and interacting with customers, I have no doubt I'd get any job I wanted in a second. But they don't! They construct this impenetrable obstacle course you have to weave through just to talk to a fucking MANAGER! What the hell am I missing and when will this frickin' end?