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Please tell me what you think [Sep. 18th, 2003|08:13 pm]
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I hope I'm ready for the test tomorrow--I've studied for two hours, and I think any more will erase everything I've learned already, or something to that degree.
Today was a hard day, but we got through it. And even better--it's the end of the day and I don't feel dead like usual. I guess knowing I'm as well as I'll ever be helped that.
Oh yeah, some mildly amusing things happened today--we were in Safeway and dropped a jug of milk. The plastic cracked and the milk soon was everywhere. After we dealt with the milk incident and got to the car, we found a spilt cup of yogurt all over the floor of the car, with no clue where it came from. We cleaned it up at home, then later when I opened the fridge to make dinner, a package of ranch dressing fell on the floor and splattered everywhere. Pretty weird, huh? Are we just klutzy, or is a weird twilight zone thing going on?
*begin rant*
Anyway, it was weird. And I don't know whether or not to stay with my therapist. Today I told her, after being asked, my favorite foods. She cautioned me, "Make sure you don't gorge", or something like that, and I got so mad. That is not something to tell a recovering anorexic! And she said a bunch of other little things that bothered me, and tried to force me to say hi to a complete stranger in the next three weeks, to rid me of my shyness. The idea of that just scares the heck out of me.
Anyway, what do you guys think? If it were you, would you stay with a therapist in this situation? I have mixed feelings because she has been my therapist since the beginning, and has helped me through a lot. But she seems to have issues with weight herself and is close-minded about anyone who is a healthy weight (like myself) or anything higher. *end of rant*
Anyway, if you can, please tell me what you think.

From: treepatter
2003-09-19 03:48 am (UTC)
Even though she is your therapist, she is still a human-being, with flaws of her own. The question is whether you think she is at this point still capable of helping you achieve your goals. If you're not feeling like your therapy is helping you, than it may be time to give her the heave-ho, and find someone new. But i know it's not an easy decision, and one you won't make rashly.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-19 04:10 am (UTC)
Thanks. Come to think of it, she can probably still help me with my goals, and I've come to think of her as a friend. But yeah, it's not an easy decision at all--there are two very complex sides to it, and I need to choose which one weighs more on my mind. And thank you--I definitely won't make the choice rashly.
Have a good Friday, by the way.
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[User Picture]From: thedarkcrystal
2003-09-19 07:01 am (UTC)
You're obviously quite upset by it, seeing as you are mentioning it at all. You should go with your own best judgement.

But if you want my personal opinion... She is a very good psychologist in most respects, but she has some serious personal problems with weight prejudices, and she does not do a very good job of covering this up while she is counseling people. And I don't think this is very professional or even very tactful, especially since she is counseling a girl who almost killed herself a little while back due to weight issues.
It seems like this time her comments definitely negated any positive effects that the session might have had. Is this a consistent thing? If so then it is not worth it, and you should try to find someone else.
You might also try talking to her about it... Honestly she's pretty stubborn and I don't think it'll get you anywhere, but in the spirit of conflict management it's worth a try, eh?
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-19 03:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks--I completely agree. But since this isn't consistent behavior, it makes the decision even harder.
I will try talking to her about it--hopefully it will help.
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[User Picture]From: thedarkcrystal
2003-09-19 06:07 pm (UTC)
Just base this on how much it is upsetting you, and if it is still worth it to you to go.
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2003-09-19 06:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks--that will help :)
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