|Sometimes the easiest way out happens to be the hardest.
||[Mar. 4th, 2007|10:12 am]
It's so strange to be encountered with problems, everywhere around me...yet know that not a single one of them are mine. Most of the people around me have seen better days. The worlds of so many have been shattered or marred in the past few days from stubborn emotional conflicts and enduring mood pathologies.
In fact, I never realized what a healthy person I've become comparatively! It's good to feel strong. I've also earned it. Taking myself through the wringer and back, and finally I feel like a good person. The seeds of my hard work are finally being sowed: I'm finally relatively sane!
I'm going to enjoy feeling right. I'm overcome so much to get here.
Everyone's seen improvements in me; now it's their turns to take the leap and improve. That is all I'll say.
I will just try to let all these tides pass me by and hopefully not to lose my sure footing under their cumbersome weights.
2007-03-11 09:14 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you are feeling so strong. You deserve to because you actually take the effort to work on yourself, which I think is moderately a rare thing. As far as others having seen better days...I think that's true for all of us. We've seen better, we've seen worse. We'll continue to see better, we'll continue to see worse. Life is a state of flux. You're in a good head place now so it's easy to forget how fragile the "better days" can be. Wrong love, wrong boss, wrong teacher, wrong lane in traffic and better days can come crashing to a temporary end. Another thought about it being "their turn to take the leap and improve" -- and obviously, this comes from my older perspective -- what I think you are seeing are growing pains coming from the desire for the unit to improve and move forward. Complacency doesn't breed much chaos. I think ultimately it's a good thing, albeit a painful one (at times).
Yeah, that is true. I really have a lot to learn but I do feel like I'm finding things out. It does remain a guilty pleasure, though, to see others making all these silly, conspicuous life mistakes without realizing it. It makes me feel like hey, maybe my life isn't so bad anymore. Maybe I have come far. I still have a loooong way ahead of me still but, thankfully, at least I have a start on that path.