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...what a mindjob. [May. 14th, 2007|03:08 pm]
Amanda
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On Saturday it will be a year since I moved to New Jersey. A year since I've been home...or should I even call it home anymore?
I've been financially independent all this time and gone from sophomore to junior. For a year Ari has been here--not 3000 miles away--and with his family I now feel like family too.

How did this pass in such a rush? How did this suddenly materialize into my life without one backword glance? I'm a strange combination of homesick and triumphant. I've done it!--but it's so scary that I did. And it's so strange that all this time my own family have been nothing more but disembodied voices on the phone, just as Ari was before them.

Will I always be split between west and east coasts, present on one and both all at once, my mind tugged into pieces between them? But yet, in spite of this my mind and life still feel whole.
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[User Picture]From: opera_lover_44
2007-05-14 08:53 pm (UTC)
I can sort of relate to what you felt before all this happened anyways...I feel like my heart's in California and not just because of Gregg and Garry...but because of the city and the warmth and the diversity and all I've been starved of here. I'm glad things are going well for you though :) I'm glad you feel whole and happy and I know things will only improve for you :)
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2007-05-15 12:00 am (UTC)
Thank you--I think they'll do the same for you :)

Though I will ask...I know Gregg is your love, but who is Garry? I'm sure I should know this but I missed a lot of friends' page readings over the past few months.
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[User Picture]From: opera_lover_44
2007-05-15 09:00 pm (UTC)
lol Garry has been Gregg's friend for the last 12 years and he's like a brother to me lol (he's 19 and his birthday's 10 days before mine so we pretend we're twins seperated at birth and everyone's lying about my age :-P) lol That's Garry for ya
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2007-05-15 11:17 pm (UTC)
Oh! Yay thanks, it all makes sense now lol :)
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[User Picture]From: glacier_kitty
2007-05-14 09:43 pm (UTC)
or should I even call it home anymore?

Sure you can! You've lived most of your life there..you just have two homes now lol
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[User Picture]From: minuetcat
2007-05-14 11:59 pm (UTC)
That is a good point...I guess I can have a childhood home and a grown-up home.
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