|A dream I had a while ago
||[Nov. 4th, 2003|08:05 am]
This is a very strange dream.
I was in our backyard, and happened to notice that there was a sheep and lamb in the old dog pen. I went to look more closely at them, and saw that the lamb had chewed off her foot. It was lying in the corner, and she was away from it, grazing happily. Her leg had dried blood all over it, but it had stopped bleeding and I knew she would be all right.
Then a dog came. I was afraid he would kill the sheep, but he ran away from them. The movement scared the lamb, who tried to run but wound up falling down. I knew, however, that she would learn to run with three feet as time went on. She would be okay.
I woke up in a very good mood.
I think it's a very symbolic dream. My mom helped me to figure it out. The lamb represents me. I removed part of myself (my anorexia) in order to survive. I was injured at first, but I learned to cope without it. In fact, I was better off without it. The dog could be my disease, a threat, death, or a relapse, but it ran from me. Maybe because it knew it could no longer hurt me? Or because it saw that I was recovering and wouldn't let it take over? And I ran because, to this day, I am scared of what the dog represents. I have phobias of all different things that were related to my disease, such as running, losing or gaining weight, or standing for long periods of time (yeah, I know that's just plain weird). But anyway, I'm going to be all right, my mind is telling me, and I'm very, very glad of that.