|Food dream--I thought I was past these
||[Nov. 6th, 2003|07:16 am]
I had a dream last night about food. Having one of these brings back some not-too-good memories of my anorexia. I wonder why one came to me now, when I am so far along in recovery and eating plenty of food. Oh well--here it is:
I was in the recorder's office cafeteria, and they had changed their menu so that all the foods I would usually get were no longer there. There was no more passionfruit juice, cheesy potatoes, vegetarian sandwiches, or any of the other stuff that I had gotten there at one time or another. With the exception of desserts. There were desserts lined up along all the counters, and in fact there was more there than food. I thought that I would get a Rice Krispies treat (semi-healthy)to tide me over until we could get some real food, so I got it. But then I saw that they had put cheese pizza out, so I got that instead. But when I sat down to eat it, I found that there were these big pieces of exotic meats under the cheese, and I had already swallowed some (I've been a vegetarian for five years, so this was a big deal to me). I told the people who worked there that they should have put the meat over the cheese, but they said they wanted people to be surprised. And then one guy gave me a baseball bat to hit him with (I don't know why). I just dropped the bat and left, and that's all I remember.