||[Nov. 10th, 2003|07:31 am]
I don't know what this means, but I think it's a good sign. All the dreams for the past three years in which I had been running, it was like my legs were made of lead and I was going in slow-motion. I would gradually slow down until I was walking, and whatever I did I couldn't speed up to a run again. This was all accompanied by a feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness.
But last night I had a dream in which I ran very fast--faster than I ever could in real life.
I've broken the weird dream-curse! Yay!
Although I'm not sure what that means. Does anyone have any ideas?
Cockroaches are invading my dreams just as they're invading our house this winter. They were everywhere in my dream. I kept accidentally stepping on them, and they were still alive and wriggling around on my foot--it was horrible.
I also had a dream that I was taking a fourth class this semester. It was French (why would I be taking French? I'm horrible at languages), and after over half the semester was over I realized that I hadn't attended any class meetings, or done any of the work. I had just forgotten about it. And the deadline for dropping the class was over--I would either have to study hard and try to get a C, or have it ruin my GPA. So I went to the class, and all these kids from high school were there. It seemed that they knew my dilemma because they were all smirking at me, and so I just walked out, all the while calculating what the damage to my GPA would be.
Weird, weird dreams.