|*sings carols* Uh-oh--what's happening?
||[Dec. 24th, 2003|08:40 am]
It's Christmas eve, and our whole family's sick. Including me. Ai, but it's annoying! Out of all the days of the year, this is when we get it.
I joined a Tad Williams community. I'm obsessed with these books! When I read them, it's like nothing is real but what's in the book. Yeah, I know I'm nuts. Maybe it's the virus taking me over, or maybe not. Because the only other books that have been cooler than these was the LOTR series. Yay for LOTR!
Anyway, enough of that. I'm sad because Christmas isn't as exciting as it used to be. I look forward to it, but I no longer count the days until Christmas-time in earnest. I don't feel all cozy and happy and...Christmasy anymore, which were the feelings that, for me, used to come with this holiday. I just feel kind of numb. Strange, but oh well.
I've been pulling off all these really great entries of late, but today I can't seem to summon enough strength to. I hate being sick because it's so hard to think, and it reminds me of the anorexia. When I wasn't getting enough nutrients and my brain cells were dying out, it felt just like having a really bad flu. And in a way, I was really sick. Just mentally instead of physically, that is all. I never want to go back to being like that again. Never.
Okay, that's all I can think of. For now, at least. Not enough thought processing today for me. Sorry for the depressing entry--I'm not depressed, just kinda out of it from this virus. Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS-EVE! Have a great holiday everyone!