I'm afraid of 18 out of 72 common fears...

Post it, please? Mine are as follows:
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[X] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[X] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 2

[ ] being touched
[x] fire
[X] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[X] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 6

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[X] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[X] tornadoes

Total so far: 12

[X] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[x] growing up

Total so far: 16

[X] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speeds
[X] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets

Final Total: 18

... if you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it "I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears"

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

Uncanny dreams!

My internal clock never ceases to amaze me. I was having this dream and I knew that I would have to wake up soon, so in my dream I informed Ari.

Amanda: I've gotta go. I have five minutes left.
Ari: I'm going with you. I won't leave your side.
Amanda: Ok, let's go.
And JUST THEN...the alarm clock goes off.

So apparently, I still have a little romantic dream-Ari who will now run around with me all day. YAY!

*is a roller coaster of emotions*

This is crazy! Two girls at work are 5 months pregnant, I helped four VERY pregnant customers today, and everyone's bringing their little toddlers in to shop! And now, as I sit here shedding the remnants of another month's unused egg, my body's very frustrated and feeling very empty. "You've been fertile for ten years, Amanda, and nothing?--you'd better get crackin'!", it says. But, I also feel bad for these students who'll need to raise a family, work, and go to school at the same time. They obviously made a mistake by having children so early.

On one hand, I ache for kids. My life won't be truly fulfilled until I become a mother. Ari and I can't wait to have a family. Every time I see a child something in my mind, body, and soul wrenches painfully and I ache to have one of my own.
On the other hand, the idea that I'll need to support the needs of another, 24/7, for the rest of my life, terrifies me. I'm glad Ari and I are waiting for marriage to "get busy"--this ensures that there's NO possibility of parenthood before we're ready for it. We'll be able to ensure that our children have parents who are emotionally, mentally, and financially able to give them the best lives possible.

I don't know, though...I just ache. I think I need a hug. Every month that goes by makes me shed one more gamete, each with its own unique set of traits.

Every month that goes by sheds one more unique child that I could have had but now, will never have. I can't help but wonder what each of them would be like.
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Burnt Sunlight--icon_goddess

A wondrous game for everyone's enjoyment!

This has been going around and I've never done it, so now's the time. Great way to rediscover forgotten music on your playlist, as I've learned!

Go ahead...guess away! If you like the look of any of the lyrics, just let me know and I'll tell you who they're from and possibly send you a song or two.
One thing: does anyone know how to make a strike-through using LJ HTML? Of all the things, I still haven't figured it out.

Step 1: Put your iTunes or equivalent on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike out the songs when someone guesses the titles and artists correctly and put the name of the song/who sings it and the username of the person who guessed it at the end of the lyric.
Step 4: Looking them up on google or any other search engine is CHEATING!!!

1. Half a mile from the county fair, and the rain came pouring down...Van Morrison--And it Stoned Me-thedarkcrystal
2. You tell me I can’t slow down, you tell me where I’ve gotta be, I spin into the darkness, and I swear that I can't see a thing in front of me...Rob Dougan--I'm Not Driving Anymore-thedarkcrystal
3. You’ve got your ball, you’ve got your chain, tied to me tight...Dave Matthews Band--Crash-thedarkcrystal
4. At night they would go walkin’ ‘til the breakin’ of the day...the morning is for sleepin’...Coldplay--Cemeteries of London-hodudududuh
5. From the back street, from the gutter, hear the sound of God stutter...
6. Tonight i feel so weak, but all in love is fair...Melissa Etheridge--Somebody Bring Me Some Water-thedarkcrystal
7. Should I have believed that I was still a boy?Toad the Wet Sprocket--Know Me-thedarkcrystal
8. One fine day in hell, the master told a story...
9. Hide the window watching, give hands that push the faces back...
10. You’re all I want, all I need, all I’ve got, all I see...Rob Dougan--All I Want-thedarkcrystal
11. “She’s made it through the wilderness somehow, she’s made it through!”Moulin Rouge! soundtrack--Like a Virgin-hodudududuh
12. Stay by me, stay by are the one, my only true...
13. Wait for the trap he has set, and wait for his prey...
14. Mama take this badge from me, I can’t use it anymore...Bob Dylan--Knockin' on Heaven's Door-rewhite, thedarkcrystal
15. At a tombstone bar in a juke joint car, he made a stop...
16. Gods and angels and devils smile....
17. Let the world be the world, let the dream unfurl, let it run its own game, let it dance with itself...
18. Heeey now, you’d better listen to me, every one of you...
19. In the afterlife, gonna be headed for some serious’re gonna make the scene today, but tomorrow there’ll be hell to pay...Squirrel Nut Zippers--The Afterlife-rewhite
20. Crazy how it feels tonight...crazy how you make it all alright, love...Dave Matthews Band--Crush-thedarkcrystal (had said "Crazy", but you obviously know it since you gave it to me lol)
21. Something’s shiny in the sky, there ain’t a cloud in sight....
22. Dance on, gypsy queen...
23. Two gunslingers walked out in the street and one said, “I don’t wanna fight no more”...
24. Insolent boy this slave of fashion, basking in your glory...Phantom of the Opera--Music of the Night</b>-katinator44
25. Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away, now it looks as though they’re here to stay...The Beatles--Yesterday-hodudududuh, thedarkcrystal, rewhite
26. Monkey chased the other monkey up the tree, said, “stop your playing, you can’t fool me!”...Asylum Street Spankers--Monkey Rag-rewhite
27. You always won every time you placed a’re still damn good, no one’s gotten to you yet...
28. The rains were silent...there was nothing, no, nothing around for miles...
29. When the moon is in the seventh house, and Jupiter collides with Mars, then peace will guide the planet, and love will steer the stars.5th Dimension--Age of Aquarius-hodudududuh, rewhite
30. I like to dream, yes, yes, right between my sound machine...Steppenwolf--Magic Carpet Ride-rewhite
31. Midnight, our sons and daughters were cut down and taken from us...
32. Where you are, that’s where I wanna be...Dave Matthews Band--Where are You Going?-thedarkcrystal
33. Is it too late to go in peace? I wonder how these things did start, anyway...
34. If I ventured in the slipstream, between the viaducts of your dreams...Van Morrison--Astral Weeks-hodudududuh
35. Sally Jo Sally Jo, sweetest little girl I know...The Trashmen--Sally Jo-rewhite
36. Oooooh! Open wide, oh-so-good I eat you, take me for a ride...Dave Matthews Band--Rapunzel-thedarkcrystal
37. On the street below these walls, where I used to walk, now I can barely crawl...Morten Harket--Ready to go Home-hodudududuh (in my case a different band than guessed, but it's definitely the same song!)
38. When will we be married Molly, when will we be wed?The Waterboys--When Will We Be Married?-thedarkcrystal
39. Father, I know now, your life’s been stretched too long...
40. Noldor, blood is on your hands, your fate a tearful destiny...Blind Guardian--(Noldor) Dead Winter Reigns-burasama
41. One is the loneliest number that you’ll ever do...Three Dog Night--One is the Loneliest Number-rewhite got it, but katinator44, burasama, and thedarkcrystal get recognition for "recognizing" it.
42. Started talking and the line went dead, never heard a single word you said...
43. Midnight on a subway she’s on her way home...
44. Any way you want it, that’s the way you need it, any way you want it...
45. I’m so glad you came, I’m so glad you remembered...
46. My body’s made of fire, black and deep and cold, burning for the choice I made so many years ago...
47. This house is like Russia, with eyes cold and grey...Tori Amos--Take to the Sky-thedarkcrystal
48. Well, I would’ve drank whiskey but I can’t hear myself...
49. Those who are dead are not dead, they’re just living in my head, and since I fell for that spell, I am living there as well...Coldplay--42-hodudududuh
50. Don’t tread on me!Metallica--Don't Tread on Me-thedarkcrystal
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Ancient Pompeiian Graffiti!

FASCINATING! Check it out:
What they've uncovered so far...

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What we have here is a glimpse of others' lives in millennia past. I can't even begin to describe how amazing this is to me. Plus, an extra chilling twist is added in that many of these people undoubtedly perished in the eruption. It really makes me think...all that we really have of our lives are a billion tiny snapshots, strung together...who can say when the last of them will be taken?
What we are left with here are the snapshots of some of the Roman Empire's rebellious, youthful, sex-crazed, and angsty citizens.

When it comes down to it, the things that people wrote weren't any different from the things that are written today! Take, for example:
"Satura was here on September 3rd", or
"Marcus loves Spendusa", or
"Atimetus got me pregnant".
It's all the same! Some consolation, I suppose, for those who think humanity is growing more foolish as time goes on :P
We are most assuredly NOT Devo, or Idiocracy, as humbling as that is to realize.

(link grabbed from wtf_history)
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Today in a nutshell

From my calendar:

"Last time we asked for prayer for Jerry Butler's foot. After nine months of various treatments, it's finally all gone."

(in a church bulletin)
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